Hey you guys…. mini sessions!!!!

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Once… maybe twice… every year, 9art busts out the mini sessions. They are mini pieces of awesome.

Why? Well, let’s be blunt. They’re cheaper. Not an event that you have to work quite so hard at saving for. But you still get some really great pictures out of the deal.

Here’s the breakdown, Joplin:

My main thing… what I REALLY get excited about… are full sessions. a ‘full’ session means one in which we figure out some unique, and possibly crazy concepts and locations to base a shoot around. We take our time, we plan out where, and what is going on in that shoot and it’s very personal to you and it’s very artistic in nature.

It’s the kind of shoot that may not happen every year… and when it does happen, we talk about bigger purchases, like session books and wall portraits… keepsakes for life and for the lives beyond your own, with specialized images to keep in your family for decades to come.
Full sessions might result in shots like this,
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or this-
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A mini session, on the other hand, is short and sweet. We stick to one location… something simple… and we focus on a 10-15 minute time slot. That time is just focused on your kiddo, not the whole family, and rather than talking about the higher end of products, we keep it simple.

Here’s a couple of shots from mini sessions last year…

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We have two easy options for packages. They are as follows:

#1:  mini session w/ prints: $100

  • sitting fee included                                                                                                                                                                              
  • one 8 x 10
  • one 5 x 7
  • two 4 x 6    

#2: mini session w/ digital images: $150

  • sitting fee included
  • 5 high res digital images included

And of course, you can add on any other products you like, ‘a la carte’.

Interested? Just drop me a line… mr9schwander@gmail.com.

The times are, June 12th from 3-6pm, & June 13th from 10:30am to 1pm. Since I’d love to do these sessions in a more natural setting, we will be at the mercy of the weather, so stay tuned for backup dates if it gets rainy.

Can’t make one of those times? Get ahold of me and I’ll see if we can’t find another time that week that will work for you.

Spread the word!

-Mark

Emily & Grant engagement

   Hey guys.

It’s been 4 days since this shoot, and I admit I’m STILL scratching chigger bites (if you don’t know what a chigger is, stay in the city, folks).

But it was worth it, so very worth it, to get these pictures of this lovely couple in a spot hidden away on the outskirts of town.

We began with some shots of these two with their beloved doggies… whose names are Romeo & Grandma.

‘Grandma’ was the brainchild of Grant- a brilliant idea inspired by the thought of how funny it would be to be able to say things like, ‘I need to take Grandma for a walk,’ or ‘grandma’s going to the bathroom in the yard again’ or ‘grandma kept me awake in bed last night.’

Humor always wins.

Enjoy the photos!

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Mom takes photobombing to the next level

I cannot tell you how much FUN I had on Kjersti’s (sort-of) senior session. She graduates from college here in a couple of weeks, and her mom wanted to commemorate the event with some pictures.

When mom came along on the shoot, her presence yielded some interesting results. Some very interesting results indeed…

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I’ll be back with more ‘serious’ pictures next time. ;)

-Mark

David

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This is David. The ‘humans of new york’ style portraiture isn’t usually my style (though I, of course, love that series), but today was a day I HAD to ask a stranger if I could take his portrait. Maybe I should thank Brandon Stanton for helping give me the courage to ask more people if I could photograph them.

I ran into David just outside my studio today, in downtown Joplin. He was hunting for his cat. We talked for a second, and then he asked if I’d mind if he sat down. I overrode my ‘I have to get back to work’ urges and said sure.

Here’s the story I heard after David sat down.

Once upon a time, David was a network engineer. He made $120 an hour to troubleshoot network issues for huge companies. He could make thousands in a week, and was an extremely tech savvy guy.

He told me everything changed one day when he spied a 15 year old couple sitting on a park bench.

The couple weren’t interacting with each other… they were texting. ‘they were in love’ said David, ‘but they didn’t know it.’

It was right then that David suddenly made a decision that he was done with life the way he’d been living it.

‘I’d had enough.’

He did something that I think we’ve all joked about doing… after living in Louisiana for a time, he literally took his smartphone, drove to the murkiest swamp he could find in Mississippi, and threw it in.

He threw his smartphone. Into a swamp. Can you imagine actually doing that?

He told me that with a chuckle. What’s David been doing since then? Traveling the country in a van, with his cat, stopping from town to town to preach and to play music on a 12 string guitar.

What do you play? I asked him.

’70s lutheran camp songs. They make people nostalgic.’

You can’t make this stuff up.

David was full of thoughts, some of which might have seemed a little ‘out there’ to folks. But to balance the passion of his chosen topics was a peace that made his smile come all the way out through his eyes. Sure enough, he preached for a bit. But it wasn’t forced… it was just to say that Jesus was his answer, to not let yourself be caught in the trappings of money, to do to others what you’d want done to you…pretty basic stuff.

‘the simplicity of it!’ he said with a  huge grin.

I asked if I could take his picture. He said sure, and asked if that was a bible I’d had sitting next to me. Yep, I said, I’d brought it to read on my lunch break. So he flipped through it while I ran to grab my camera, and was reading it when I came back.

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I don’t know if he’s found his cat yet. ‘We’ve been to so many cities together,’ he said. ‘she knows that van. I guess I’ll just stay put til she comes back, even if I gotta stay another day or two. she’ll find it.’

He wasn’t worried.

I’ll be honest. I’m not going to throw my smartphone into a swamp. But I will say I’ll be thinking more about how to live simply this weekend.

-Mark

Evolving a business:: less is more and all that jazz

In 29 days, I’ll no longer have a studio.

Don’t panic. 9art still exists. I still take photos just like before. And this was not an unhappy decision. But some things just have to change. :)

When I first really got things rolling, that studio was a dream come true. I still remember the first year of sharing it with my good graphic designer friend Matt Spiel… blaring the ‘Inception’ soundtrack (Matt yelling BUM! BUM! BUM! as it crescendo’d), goofing around with lighting setups to get pictures like this one…

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Then, for the past 4 years, it’s just been me up there. Not that Matt & I don’t still hang out. (Would you believe we just hung out an hour ago)?

FIVE YEARS…. can’t believe it’s been that long.

It was a milestone to get that place.

Now, it’s a milestone to let it go.

It’s funny how your perception of success changes as you go… and how things evolve in unexpected ways. When I started, the studio was a marker of my validity; it meant (or I thought it did) I was a REAL photographer, and having that physical presence was vital in being part of the downtown community. And, I can’t forget, it was the starting spot for the ‘third thursday’ photo booths here in Joplin…

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And it was vital, during these past few years, in having a place to work, a place to meet, a place to shoot.

Now I’m at a completely different point. A physical space, at this point in my career, really doesn’t mean much at all. A reputation as a reliable person with a solid body of work means a whole lot more.

So the questions that naturally ensue:

-don’t I need the studio to shoot in?
-don’t I need a place to do my day to day work?
-don’t I need a place to meet with folks?
-don’t I need a physical location for clients to consider me a valid business?
-don’t I need a place to do the monthly third thursday photobooths out of?

Those were hard questions to answer. Those are the kind of decisions you have to face from time to time in running a business- changes can’t be made on a whim for sure, and no change should ever be made that interferes with the core concepts that got you started in your craft to begin with. ‘From Good to Great’ is a fantastic book that taught me a lot about that idea.

No rash moves. But fear of change can also be the most destructive force to a professional… leading to things like an overhead that’s way more than you need it to be and a workflow that ultimately makes you a far less productive person than you should be. I can’t tell you how valuable it is to sit down, at least once a year, and ask yourself the tough question… ‘where can I trim the fat?’

A lot of prayer and awesome happenings and even awesomer people revealed the answer to all those questions and opened the door to make some changes.

So, for those of you who are wondering about those specifics…

SHOOTING: 90% of my work is ‘on location’- when it comes down to it, I generally only use the studio about once a month. I like to shoot in different places, to be in a real environment. But on those occasions when I need an actual studio space to shoot in, I’ve still got it covered, don’t you worry.

MEETING, PHOTOBOOTH, & WORKSPACE: I’ve developed some partnerships that gave me solutions to all of these things.

Firstly with Spiva Arts Center– I love being around the folks in our foremost local gallery here in Joplin, and they have graciously allowed me to host the photobooths in their building each month.

I’m developing another partnership with a local creative group that involves a sweet co-working space…. I can’t go into the details, but it’ll take care of my storage, having a dedicated desk space, and having a conference area for ordering appointments with folks. Plus, being around other creative professionals is always a bonus (honestly, a must) when it comes to keeping yourself inspired.

And I can’t forget the local coffeeshop downtown… Joplin Ave Coffee Co. For the past 3 years, these guys have served me my daily (overabundant) dose of get-it-done serum (aka caffeine) and let me hang out at my ‘usual table’ for much of my work time.

Yeah, I completely realize, it’s weird that I work in a coffeeshop. But I love the environment, and for me it’s an oddly productive place- plugging away with my earbuds, yet surrounded by people to cut out that feeling of isolation that us largely-computer-based creative folks get sometimes.

Amazing interactions, conversations, and networking have happened there. So a good portion of the time, that’s where you’ll find me.

SO NOW…

The studio is out of the picture. But other things are stepping in.

This is a big year for more than just the streamlining. I’m also set to launch a new division of my photography business within the next month, dedicated specifically to commercial work.

The design phase is in full force on the joplin photonovel… my biggest project to-date, as a collaboration with Lance Schuabert for the Joplin Convention & Visitors Bureau… more about that very soon.

And all sorts of creative ideas are in the works.

So farewell studio. I’ll miss ya. But I’m excited about what’s next.

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-Mark

the Caldwells

The Caldwells are another family I’ve been working with for some time now, watching Caegan & Leighalla grow through the sessions. Mom Lisa & dad Corban moved the fam to Kansas City last year, but being amazing and incredibly sweet clients, they still come back to Joplin for photos every few months to document their little family. I couldn’t be more honored.

We took these in the John Wise mansion, a beautiful historic building in downtown Joplin, that the the owner was kind enough let us borrow for a couple of hours.

I think I’ll let the pictures do the rest of the talking… the chaos, laughter, tears, climbing, kicking, hunger, discovery, and 100 other beautiful emotions that come during a 90mn session with toddlers. :)

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Tarzan Zerbini circus, Joplin MO

Got to go to the circus a couple of weeks ago, for the first time since I was a kid. Now, here I am taking MY kids. They loved it, of course, and thank goodness my battery died halfway through it so I could stop shooting and just watch.

But before that point… I took a picture or two. :)

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CIY superstart

Other than the occasional wedding, I haven’t gotten to launch myself fully into ‘journalism mode’ for a long time. My favorite work is probably always going to be staging cinematic concept shots (especially really ridiculous ones).

But… there’s something different that you take away from documenting an event that you don’t get when you’re the one directing. It’s fun. Instead of controlling the action, you’re freezing moments that are already in motion; it’s much more about timing and I love the challenge.

So I got super excited when CIY (Christ in Youth) asked me to drive to Tulsa to document their preteen event superstart. I’d worked with CIY before on head & group shots for their staff, so I’d been wanting to see one of their actual events for awhile.

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(staff photo ‘outtakes’…)

Now you gotta understand. A CIY event is no small production. These guys do NOT mess around (well, ok, sometimes they do, but not when it counts)- their teams work like crazy all year brainstorming, creating elaborate sets, working with professional entertainers, planning out a show that will WOW and inspire thousands of kids in each town it’s in.

The crazy thing is, this is just ONE of 6+ experiences that CIY creates each year, for all ages of kids (middle school through high school). And the cool thing is… these guys really love what they do. A lot. And the passion shows.

I didn’t fully realize that until Matt, the production manager for the touring event, turned to me toward the end of the first night (with the biggest smile I’ve seen from him), and said,

‘this is my favorite part. When you can hear them all singing at the same time.’ 

That was a bigger smile on his face than when I used to serve him a venti, double-blended, no whip mocha frappucino every morning back in my Starbucks days. THAT’S saying something. Because he really loves that drink (yes, he’s even pictured with it if you scroll back up).

This was fun. Hope you enjoy a few of my favorite shots… narrowed down from the 2400+ images I took that weekend… :)

This was the view of the parking lot, BEFORE it got full. I’ve never seen. so many. church vans. In my entire life…
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worship was led by Yancy, a beautiful singer who knows how to bring the energy.

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CIY teamed up with Real Encounter, a BMX stunt/ministry group. These guys were super fun to watch. Look closely to see the water bottle being knocked off of Drew’s head in the shot below this one.

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the best part for me is getting to tell a fuller story. I didn’t just shoot the performances… I also got to hang out at incredible pizza and on the bus to and from, to show a more in-depth view of the whole experience from the kids’ point of view.

My first time at incredible pizza… it is a tidal wave of sensations, and their cookie pizza could easily be an addiction if this place were in my town.
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I also grabbed a couple of unsuspecting ‘models’ to show off some of CIY’s superstart goodies. Shirts, hats, sunglasses, lanyards, etc…. product/fashion shots on the fly.

These guys were super cute and had no problem hamming it up on the spot.
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A few more at the event…

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I’ll end it with my personal favorite. Mr Drew was the MC for the event (as well as the Superstart program director) and I have to give him mad props for holding the stage so well through both laughs and some very emotional moments.

This is him, jumping into a push of the giant ‘something amazing’ button.
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Kate [1 year old]

Miss Kate just turned 1 year old.

Um, it feels like a couple of weeks ago that we shot her newborn session.

Feels like a couple of weeks before that since I was photographing her mom & dad’s wedding (that’d be 5 years ago now).

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I’m starting to get that ‘experience’ feeling… and I kinda like it… I’ve been doing this photography thing for awhile now. Maybe someday I’ll be shooting Kate’s wedding.

Whoa!

Here’s Kate. We kept the session simple, and did it in the family’s home. She loves balloons, getting into cabinets, and sitting in her great grandma’s rocking chair… that’s all we needed to tell the story of Kate that day.
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Can you feel it? [artist series]

INTRODUCTION::  Sometimes, my blog posts are to everyone. Sometimes, more specifically, they are addressed to those artists among you.

 I love artists. I know how hard it can be to think like one and try to make a living as one… so I like to share things to help on that journey, as I learn a few lessons myself. Most often, I’m not posting so much from the ‘been there, done that’ perspective (after all, I’m only 30)… more from the AM there, DOING that perspective. I like hearing from others going through the same things I am, so I’m hoping you feel the same.

If you’re not a creative person, I hope you get something out of these posts anyway… especially this one, because I think the main point applies to everyone.
And if you aren’t an artist and rambling posts like this don’t do anything for you… (certainly don’t blame you), more regular photo posts are coming soon, and I’ll try and at least warn you from here on out by putting this at the beginning of the artist posts:

[ARTIST SERIES]

So here goes today. I posted some of these thoughts in the facebook page of a small artist group I’m really close to. We’re pretty honest with each-other. Sometimes that can be hard. But it’s (almost) always a good thing when someone can bring truth to your life, real truth- as long as you’re ready to hear it. My biggest lesson lately (I notice in others, but worst in myself):

emotion is not a truth just because you feel it strongly.

I first started thinking about this while reading ‘the Screwtape letters‘, a creative and playful work of fiction by CS Lewis in which one demon writes to another on how to keep a human from truth. “There is nothing like suspense and anxiety for barricading a human’s mind against the Enemy,’ writes the elder uncle to the less experienced nephew, ‘the enemy’ referring to God. Regardless of your beliefs, you can take that quote and easily apply it toward inspiration, or productivity.

That book keeps on as a sort of instruction manual on how to get a mind so wrapped up in itself that it can’t see the bigger picture for what it is anymore. ““Tortured fear and stupid confidence are both desirable states of mind,” says the uncle.

How much of our life- the ‘creating art’ part, the day-to-day part, the spiritual part (if you take that into account)- is ruled by emotion?

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As artists, we are more susceptible to this issue than any other group. Because no other group can claim emotion as an excuse  so easily… others even hand us this excuse, ALL. THE. TIME.

‘well, they’re an artist, aren’t artists supposed to be emotional?’

‘artists just FEEL so much more.’

‘I know he’s an a**, but he’s a creative type, you know? He can’t help it…’

…and then we hand that same excuse to ourselves. 

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My favorite example of this, is the movie, ‘Inside Llewyn Davis’. It’s a very quiet, unassuming little film from the Coen brothers, a director duo who typically tell crime stories (Fargo, No Country For Old Men). They ventured out of their usual genre to tell a quirky story about a 1960s folk singer. It’s a film that I personally believe to be a love letter/slap-in-the-face to artists everywhere. And we all kinda need it.

Take a look at the picture of the guy with the cat. That’s LLewyn. Kinda just looks like a lazy, mopey, loser that hates people, right?

Ah! But wait… now he has a guitar…. and suddenly our perception shifts… he’s a tired soul, full of pain and suffering and emotion and creativity. He’s a guy you want to love, for both his talent and for his pain.

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OH THE FEELING!

So he’s a little troubled. Part of his charm? Yeah, moody… Doesn’t always think about how he’s treating others. Ok, sometimes he’s downright selfish and mean and ridiculous. But it’s ok. You know why? He’s an ARTIST. He’s down on his luck. The world is against him. He’s not getting anywhere in his career.  That’s hard, and none of it his fault, and he’s perfectly ok to sit and revel in each troubled emotion that pops up, right?

You get so far into the movie and realize… no, not really. It’s not ok. Everything that’s wrong in his life… in terms of both his success as an artist and his proficiency in relationships… whoops, it’s all actually kinda his fault.

That’s a hard realization. It’d be different if, oh, he suffered from severe clinical depression… but no, that’s not the issue, (or at least, that’s not ALL that’s going on)… in the end, he’s just kind of a jerk. The perfect example of a person that got wrapped up in his own feelings for so long, he can’t feel anyone else’s anymore… nor can he even see how he’s sacrificing his own opportunities for the sake of keeping his bad attitude.

I am Llewyn. Not all the time, but more of the time than I should be. He’s all of us, as artists. We get down on our luck, things don’t go the way we want, we get scared of going any further, and then we succumb to the feelings that come as a result. It’s not that those feelings are wrong in themselves… there’s no stopping them from happening. But if we keep going the direction of actually believing those feelings and letting them control our actions, we stop making the work we should be making, we treat others poorly, and we become too overwhelmed with fear to take the opportunities we should be taking.

Because we live off our emotions, and our emotions tell us we’re failing far more often than we actually are. 

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Obviously, creating is emotional and we can’t just shut that off. Artists are made to feel things more strongly than some others. If they didn’t, they wouldn’t create. And I’m not dismissing issues with actual depression that many artists face… my dad was a woodcarver with severe bipolar depression, so I know those issues well.
What I’m talking about is letting the funk that you’re in, control the actions you take, because you’ve accepted the feelings that led to it as truth.  To paraphrase a quote I heard yesterday- what you’re feeling is real, but it doesn’t mean it’s reality.

The problem is, we mistake emotion as truth. It’s not. Even if it stems from a truth or leads us to a deeper exploration of one, or runs parallel to a real, concrete, truth. But our emotion, in itself, is not a fact just because it feels so much like one.

Which then leads us to my final question… what IS our actual source of truth?

For me personally, that source is God. I have to look to him throughout my day to re-establish what is truth, because I believe real truth can only originate from the one who set all this up to begin with, not those who live within this small portion of creation and can only base truth off the very little they can see and feel on their own.

That may not be what you believe in. But even if it’s not, I’d encourage you to still take this thought and run with it. How can you continually refresh your day with REAL truth, every time an emotion threatens to take over? Maybe you can do it with the help of loved ones or friends that you know that aren’t afraid to be blunt with you.

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Maybe you need to refer to a basic list of truths about your life, or even about what you’re working on this week, that you wrote down when you had more clarity. Lists like that can help a lot. If you’re feeling ‘stuck’, clear a significant amount of time to sit down and look at the big picture and write down some facts that you need to be keeping in front of you.

I’m in the middle of a huge, overwhelming project myself right now, and I’ve had to frequently rely on my wife and close friends and prayer to remind me that, just because I feel anxiety right now… doesn’t mean that I’m failing. Doesn’t mean the project is failing. Doesn’t mean it won’t get done. Doesn’t mean it’s not worth doing. No matter how much it FEELS that way. In fact, those feelings of fear and self-doubt probably mean the opposite of failure.

As Steven Pressfield says in ‘the War Of Art‘,

“If you find yourself asking yourself (and your friends), “Am I really a writer? Am I really an artist?” chances are you are. The counterfeit innovator is wildly self-confident. The real one is scared to death.”
So I’m going to go in a corner and cry now.

But then… I’m going to make my list. And I’m going to get back to work.

Cheers.

-Mark